This is a weird one for me. I don’t like gatekeepers, which I am about to do. I don’t like complaining, which I am about to do. I don’t like sharing my own stories, which I am about to do.
I don’t like pretty much anything that I am about to write… but… it is pretty honest.
I know mental health is real. I deal with it on a daily basis. I am sure that many others do too. That includes celebrities — they are people, after all — I just do not want to hear them complain about it.
They are people. They are not regular people. Sorry. Also, not sorry.
The latest situation that pushed me over the top was Bella Hadid ‘sharing her struggle’ … to her MILLIONS of followers… from her mansion…
Again, I am sure that Bella Hadid does have battles with mental health.
I am also sure they are not what the rest of us are dealing with.
I am getting close to reliving this for a second winter:
Full course load of classes.
Internship at local television station.
Working graveyard at Denny’s to eat, pay bills.
Sleeping in my car because rent is insane.
Showering at the gym, because I sleep in my car.
Sorry… Bella Hadid… I got some concerns. What are you worried about? Not enough modeling gigs coming in? Someone said something mean on your Twitter?
See… I’m gatekeeping, and I hate it. But I just see things from Bella in People Magazine —
“This is pretty much my everyday, every night for a few years now,” Hadid wrote on the Gram, with pictures of her crying.
“Social media is not real. For anyone struggling, please remember that. Sometimes all you’ve gotta hear is that you’re not alone. So from me to you, you’re not alone. I love you, I see you, and I hear you. Self help and mental illness/chemical imbalance is not linear and it is almost like a flowing rollercoaster of obstacles… it has its ups and downs , and side to sides.”
“But I want you to know, there is always light at the end of the tunnel , and the rollercoaster always comes to a complete stop at some point. (There is always room for it to start up again, but for me it’s always been nice to know that even if it’s a few days, weeks, or months, it does get better, to some extent, even for a moment. ) it took me a long time to get that in my mind , but I’ve had enough breakdowns and burnouts to know this: if you work hard enough on yourself, spending time alone to understand your traumas , triggers, joys, and routine, you will always be able to understand or learn more about your own pain and how to handle it. Which is all that you can ask of yourself.”
“Anyways. Not sure why but it feels harder and harder to not share my truth on here. Thank you for seeing me and thank you for listening. I love you,” she concluded.
Soooo, now… Bella has a million people swooping in to tell her everything will be alright… of fvcking course it will be … her net worth is $25 million. She isn’t missing a meal. She isn’t doubling up her socks tonight.
Again, mental health is real… maybe some will ‘relate’ to Bella Hadid or be inspired by it. That person is not me.